In The Center.

Throughout this entire journey from start (being introduced to the idea of Deeper) to the present (I am a Deeper student) there's been the same struggle I'm sure most of you if not all are very familiar with. That is, "Am I really doing what God wants me to do?" and yesterday, for the first time I can remember, I began to cry out of excitement/joy/curiosity/thankfulness and really to best sum it up I was awestruck because I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I'm directly in the center of the will of God in my life. This conclusion comes only after very careful prayer and more confirmation than an average person would need. I'm here and I'm completely amazed at how God's shown up and just what He's done and who He's used to get me here.

NOT ONLY has He confirmed my being here but He's been opening up and uncovering the very precious and special gifts He's placed in me. I'm so excited. I'm just SO excited and really just in love with the present move of God in my life.

This past weekend I traveled up to Redding, Ca to visit with my dear dear friends. friends that hold not only a special place in my heart but they make my spirit feel at home! there was even a point in time when I, having never visited Redding, said, "I'm so glad to be back HERE." this statement was particularly profound to my spirit because it was the time my feelings and what I knew to be true (that we were all very connected in spirit) was confirmed. Anyway, during that time in Redding the Lord really showed up and worked me so-to-speak haha. He lovingly revealed to me something that I was lying to not only myself but my closest friends about. So because of that I was able to take care of it the best way I knew how and executed it with the help and strategies of the Holy One my dearest friend. I can't express to you the freedom I experienced from this!

Now, this week of school started off with God speaking to me about that release and the freedom I experienced. Not only did I feel the freedom in my spirit and general thought life but I experienced it in my tears and my worship. It was liberating!

I hit a wall... the next day (weds) I was having trouble pressing in during worship in the morning my mind was racing on about a million different tracks! it wasn't until later that evening we had our prophetic ministry time. There was exponential breakthrough. An excerpt
"Sarah, we're breaking off of you every feeling of isolation, of being alone of fighting the battles alone, hasn't been just a feeling it's been the truth. but now it's not true anymore this is a new time for you..."

This is only part of what was spoken over me during the prophetic ministry time. Can I just say...NAIL ON THE HEAD!! so dead on to exactly what I was battling that weekend.

Anyway I'm so excited to be able to share this journey with you! and if you'd like to be apart of my Intercessory Team send me your email address and you'll get personal emails and in depth updates on what's happening on a (hopefully) day to day basis.

thanks so much for reading continue to press in and search for His center in your LIFE!!!

What A Week It's Been.

Well, here I am sitting in...well Redding, Ca for this weekend at least. But, I've made the move to Vacaville, Ca! and wouldn't you know it The Lord answered our collective cries for breakthrough in housing jobs AND tuition!! My GOODNESS He has proven Himself to be faithful!

I'm super blessed to be attending The Deeper School! Already I've made great friends and like I've said to my dear friends from home I'm seriously no where close to who I was when I first stepped into my first session. What a life changing week it's been! I can't wait (and am a little nervous) for what's next

On to the good stuff....

Where/What has God done to me this past week that has made the most impact?

yikes! I did really just ask that...yup!

well, God has been, and is, revealing to me that I've got this Spirit of Rejection just looming right over me. He's telling me that I've been trying to "take care" of it on my own and that's no..that's not really workin' out for me. This all came to a point around sometime last night. So, I walked over to the Alabaster Prayer House and just listened I needed the guidance only God could give. Let's face it He pretty much knows EVERYTHING! and LOVES to give me advice...and it's always the best kind.

You wanna know what He said?!
I'll tell ya...
I was sitting at the edge of the water fountain in the middle of the Prayer House inspecting a rather interesting rock I had scooped up from the water. When I hear the Lord say "Do you see the intricacies of that stone? and the great care and detail I have put into it?" my first response was a quiet "whoa..." then, I proceeded with a questioning, "yeah?" then, a more affirming, "YES!" He then told me "I have taken more care and place greater detail in you, I LOVE you. You are perfect!"
and that was what I needed for breakthrough. So I'm (with the help of my Savior) slowly working through the tangled mess I've made while trying to fix it.

Needless to say God's been doing some awesome stuff this week.

How can YOU be apart of this incredible journey?!
Well...I still need $2,243 (remainder of tuition and books) by November 15th so if you can PRAYERFULLY consider there's a donate button here in my blog that goes directly to an account set aside just for school!

and more than finances I would love Prayer..just loads and loads of prayer!!! like....tons of prayer!!! cause without it I strongly believe I never would have made it even this far.

I appreciate so much the time you've taken to catch up with me here and to experience this journey right along side me. I'd love to catch up individually!

So, Tomorrow. GOD>circumstance.

Based on recent events. I'm getting a little worried.
I still need tuition and now help with a down payment on a place. EEP!!
In this mindset it's difficult to see past the things I don't have to the things that have been promised. I keep having to repeat to myself and to my spirit that.

I AM A CONQUEROR.
I AM VICTORIOUS.
and most importantly
I AM DEEPLY LOVED.

This is proving to be one of the most difficult positions I've ever been in.
It's literally down to the hour. I set out on my journey tomorrow morning and I'm really wishing I had more time. I honestly have exhausted all my options and now have to completely rely on God and His promise. It's just really getting increasingly difficult.

So, I found myself here, sitting in my car crying out to God. And all I hear is, "I love you." it was so comforting and terrifying all at the same time. It means this is real. I'm really going for this. This is where the rubber meets the road and I truly have to say and believe these words. "I trust in You!"

If you've ever been here, you'll know what I'm talking about. If you haven't, let me tell you...It's liberating and very scary all at once. To be in the position to TRUST God beyond all reason is the most awesome (ADJ. inspiring awe) flat-on-your-face, humbling place you can be.

SO I ask you to be apart of this incredible journey I'm about to step into by joining me in coming before the Lord in awe and thanksgiving and enter into some heavy prayer time for His promises to be released and there to be a quickening and for Him to do it in a way He would be ULTIMATELY glorified. pray for RELEASE!
another way you can help is by donating... ANYTHING!!! any amount is a ridiculous blessing to me.
There are some people who have already gave all they could and to them I am SO GRATEFUL I can't say enough about their generosity and kindness.
SO please prayerfully consider giving what you can to help me in this exciting time.

Thanks!

With so much LOVE and Many Many blessings!!

-Sarah

Day By Day.

Well,
I've made it this far. I'm no longer in Ventura County which is strange to say the least. I'm spending time in Hesperia with my parents resting and spending time with them before I hit the road.
I guess it's just not real to me yet. I'm not sure why I've gotten the acceptance letter all my friends are already settling into their places and transitioning. Maybe cause I know it'll hit me on the 6th hour of my 7.5 hr journey. We'll see.

anyway I'm $690 closer to my tuition!!! Thanks to a few absolutely incredible people!
I have been surrounded by some really awesome people who bless me with prayer and in this case outrageous financial support!! I'm so GRATEFUL!! But, alas I am still in need of about $2,500 to make tuition!! I'm confident that God will bring it. Now, I'm just excited to see how He'll do it!

So, it's 2 days before my actual MOVE DAY... til what I'm calling.."The Drive."
and I'm in Hesperia plotting ways to raise 2500 (and maybe a little more to help with moving costs)

I'm taking this trip as a learning experience to go out and chase the things God has for me. I'm expecting this to be an intense year for me. I'm so excited and very nervous for this upcoming season.

Thanks again for your Love and support and prayers in this exciting time.
I ask that you all continue to pray for me on this journey. I'm SO appreciative and blessed by you all