I've been in school for three months.
I'm still..... figuring out what 'living in faith' looks and feels like.
The kind of faith that says and knows, with every fiber of your being, that God will provide. Sometimes I have it... most the time I don't.
This year, I don't have a steady job.
The bills are still there. I have 1700 left of tuition and my upcoming Mission Trip to pay for.
It's becoming exhausting and exhilarating.
but, somehow.. I've made it this far.
I'm, in huge transition right now. I'm experiencing a move of God like I've never encountered before. In my personal times of prayer and intercession and in corporate times of worship. I've stepped into the beginnings of one of my biggest dreams coming true.
Starting this second year of school has been one of the hardest things I've done in a long time. It's a daily decision to not just stand.. but to move forward and keep taking ground. I get to do what I love and be who I am and find out what that looks like. More than that, I'm standing, fighting and running on behalf of my family and the people I have yet to meet, the people who need me to tell my story of redemption and strength to encourage them to pursue actually knowing a God who IS love in the purest and fullest sense of the word. To know worth.
Even now I could burst with happiness about how amazing I've found God to be in just these three months. There have been days where I've just cried in gratitude, days where I've laughed and couldn't stop smiling in thankfulness... what the heck have I become?
Every morning I take a deep breath.
Not one day is the same.
I love the unexplainable wonders of God.
I love the signs that point to His true nature.
I love the way He flows through me and I can feel Him moving.
What. A. Gift.
I've been given a chance to see with new eyes.
and tomorrow I'll be given a new chance to refresh my goggles.
I guess this is what second year has been so far.
Learning.
I'm in the school of the Holy Spirit.
I've set course for a cliff... and I'm sprinting faster than my own feet can carry me.
I don't know what's gonna happen when I jump... but, I've jumped before.
